Bare With Me
I was tempted to post something unreal today. Just to say I made a new blog post for my Journee Bees, but ultimately that meant I would be lying to you. There are so many topics to discuss and quite a few people I could speak on, but I never follow my own instinct, I just listen for God's voice. I would be lying if I said his voice was clear lately, but I'm going to push through this so just bare with me, but I need to get something off my chest.
The power to forgive is something we all have the ability to do. The first to apologize is the bravest. The first to forgive is the strongest. The first to forget is the happiest. I have been trying my hardest to forgive those who have done certain things to me and let's be clear, I have been through plenty. I have watched as people talked about each other and then smile in that persons face. I have been mistreated disrespected and I have been lied on. All by the same people. Figure. But I forgive you all. You see, if I keep being mad at you, I am giving you my power and clearly you need something to accommodate your intolerable behavior, but it won't be from me.
You came at me left. You thought raising your voice was suppose to make me nervous. You took your power way too serious when approaching me. Made my feelings appear to everyone as if they didn't matter. Kept telling everyone about our privileges but all that mattered was that door and me on the other side. But I forgive you.
You lied on me to those who don't like you. Pretended to be cool with me just to burn me. Mission accomplished. You smiled in my face while plotting against me. Mission accomplished. You pretended to care but tell everyone that you didn't for their approval. But I forgive you.
I have been trying to understand my purpose in other people's lives. I've come to understand that people only want to be on good terms with me when it benefits them.
But I forgive you!!
If I never talk to you again, I wish you nothing but the best. If I never see you again, I wish you nothing but the best. If we never cross each other's paths, I won't be ashamed to share my smile because at the end of the day, I am taking my power back.
God bless you.